Well... I've been meaning to write about this but never really sat down and actually started typing until now. Let's see... A lot has happened in my first 3 months of being on FABC; some good things, some bad things, and everything in between. I remember first seeing FABC on youtube and was instantly brought back to the good ol' days of being on the OG PH. I decided to come here and remake my OG fairy, until I decided,
why not make a sparrowman? And here we are now. October 23rd, 2017 will probably always stick me for the rest of my life, because this is how I truly changed for the better. Creating my sparrowman has brought me a lot of happiness. I was in a very rough place when I first came here, plagued with nothing but anxiety, fear, and sadness. This changed when I met some certain people (if you're reading this, you know who you are.) Everyone was wary of me I remember, because I was new, and a lot of people are uneasy around new people. But then people realized I wasn't that bad, and they talked to me. If I had known the friendships I was making would've brought me nothing but happiness, I wish I found this site earlier. Everyone was so nice and accepting of me. Only a few people have given me some trouble, but that's okay. That's expected of course, not everyone's gonna like you. But somehow, there are some people who DO like me, and that makes me so happy, since I'm not very liked IRL. I appreciate every single person I've met, because you've all impacted me in such a positive way and I cannot truly find the words to thank you.
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Within these 3 months, I've also heard a lot about KPop. Now, me being the "rocky edgy" type of music listener, I snubbed KPop without really giving it a chance. Until one day, a close friend of mine told me I should listen to BTS. I brushed it off. Novemeber 17th, 2017, I decided to actually listen to BTS because I had remembered my friend talking about listening to them. So, I did. And if you're super close to me, you've personally seen what BTS has done to me. I almost feel as though I was suppose to come to FABC to find these amazing friends I have, and for them to lead me to BTS, my second source of happiness.
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Michal, my sparrowman, is almost like my safe space. I become a different person here; the person I want to be, the person I'm slowly becoming. Before coming here, I was very shy and timid online. I was like that when I first came here, but then I eventually opened up and honestly, I'm surprised I'm this talkative, I'm usually not. I feel comfortable enough to let loose around my friends and be weird and crazy with them, and I love that. Sure, some people dislike that, but in all honesty, who cares? We're just trying to have some fun and make some everlasting memories.
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A special shoutout goes to Luna, Gardenia, Sunny, Daisy, and last but not least, Rose. You guys have honestly made me so happy, and talking to you all almost every single day, some of you almost constantly, I love you so much. Thank you for making me happy, thank you for letting me be myself and helping me through rough times. I know I've said this over and over but I seriously cannot thank you all enough for welcoming me into FABC. Thank you for introducing me to KPop, to BTS, and overall giving me a place to go to whenever I need to vent or rant.
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Welp, this has seriously dragged on long enough. If you read this, thank you for reading! I really appreciate it. I hope to continue being friends with a lot of you and I hope to make even more! <3